Friday, 12 February 2021
Just when we came up for air!
Wednesday, 18 November 2020
Smelling the roses!
The last few weeks have been full of drama and it has seen my body collapsing with the mother of all fibromyalgia flares and a (non Covid) viral infection. Most things have been resolved and I have my peace back again.
I have taken back control of my house in which I had fallen down during my illness, and I have had help from a cleaner from my aged care package.
A lot of our Corona limits have been lifted and I have been able to see my family. That has helped. More things will be lifted next Sunday and it looks hopeful that we will be able to see family at Christmas.
Chris is recovering well from his surgery and no longer needs special dressing of his wound. In fact, a bandaid suffices now. I am so cheered that he is well. I hate it when he is unwell.
The days are getting hotter with tomorrow set to be 33deg C but I am not concerned since we aren't going outside and we have air conditioners now.
We saw the doctor today for routine blood results and my blood pressure check as it was high last week. With giving my situation to the LORD and regaining my peace, it was 134/80 and the doctor was very pleased.
We have found a couple of Christian networks to watch wholesome movies and they have been very uplifting. One is New Faith Network for which I pay about $8AUD a month and the other is free for 14 days then $8AUD a month- ACCTV.net from Australia.
Chris and I sit of an evening and watch TV together and it all helps to bring stress levels down as well as blood pressure.
We are enjoying our back garden with a return of the prolific bird life that is so colourful. They have returned from their migration north to beat the winter and they are a joy to watch as they come down for the seed and food we leave for them.
Life can be so difficult, but can also be so wonderful: a great deal of the wonder of it all is to take time in smelling the roses!
Monday, 19 October 2020
I haven't bothered to do it.
In Melbourne where we live, it is possible to experience all seasons in one day and the joke of the day is to wear a bikini under your raincoat. It plays havoc with Fibromites.
We Fibromites know that inclement or changing weather patterns causes a fibromyalgia flare and for me it has run true to form.
I have been unable to think clearly let alone blog, and the depression that has enveloped me in its' dreariness has made it impossible to rise above the constant background of muscle pain.
By the time I have made our bed and tidied our home in preparation for the nurse from Hospital in the Home to come to change Chris's post op dressing, I am in so much pain that I just want to crawl back into that newly made bed. Sometimes I do.
Still on lockdown with Covid 19, we only go to the chemist or face to face doctors appointments when a phone consultation isn't suitable. And the way I have been feeling, it is more than enough.
It is not uncommon for us to prepare ourselves for a few hours out of the home as if we were planning a vacation. When I say "prepare ourselves" I mean emotionally.
We have to give ourselves a pep talk and conjure up motivation and spoons to leave home. Physically, there's not much to do.
We may or may not shower, depending on how recently we have had one. We get dressed and we rest. Avid clock watchers, we usually leave our departure until the absolute last minute, so loathe are we to venture outside these days. By the time we are no longer in lockdown, I think I will be preferring to stay home.
Close to the hour to depart, I will usually check my hair has been combed and on a really, really good day, I will pull all stops out and put on some lipstick. With mandatory masks, no one is even going to see that these days, so lately I haven't bothered to do it.
Monday, 28 September 2020
Hit by a truck!
Tuesday, 22 September 2020
We only live once
We were overjoyed to see a double rainbow on our way home. It was so vivid and we felt like we were actually driving through it.
Yesterday was a day of severe fibromyalgia pain, but I decided to try to focus on positives and I didn't have to look far. The same daughter we visited today has had leukaemia and she had a phone consult yesterday from her haemotologist, who informed her that she was still in remission.
Laying in bed last night, I tried to ignore the aching muscles, stiff neck and back and I decided to dwell on the many ways I have been blessed daily. Certainly the blood results were praiseworthy. I fell asleep praising and thanking God for the miracle of her life.
I woke up still in pain, as the weather was inclement, but I needed to go to the chemist, so I forced myself to get dressed and go. We then proceeded to see our daughter, glad to be able to at last visit someone and drive in the car!
I know I will most likely wake up in pain tomorrow, but I weighed it up and decided that seeing my girl and going for a drive would be worth it. So I will plan the next few days accordingly.
I will be preparing an easy stew in the slow cooker tomorrow. I will be doing just the essentials in the house- for me that is putting clean washing away and doing tonight's dishes. With my arms tingling and feeling like my muscles and tendons are tearing, I won't be doing them tonight. They will be there in the morning...
Life with fibromyalgia is a juggling act and a life of constantly meting out spoons and rest breaks. Every day one has to decide if a certain activity is worth the pain to follow it. Sometimes it is.
We have to weigh up the satisfaction and pleasure of today against the certain knowledge of a painful tomorrow. We often have to choose to live and we suffer physically for it.
Fibromites have to plan to live or we will die inside through boredom, loneliness and regret. We must know that we could cocoon ourselves today only to find we suffer tomorrow anyway.
Along with the pain of overprotecting ourselves, comes the feeling of regret. Choose carefully and try to find joy every day. We only live once.
Thursday, 27 August 2020
Fresh out!
Tuesday, 11 August 2020
With tea, morphing I am
Sunday, 9 August 2020
And Baby makes three!
Sunday, 2 August 2020
Rona has found us!
Monday, 20 July 2020
Watch, pray and wash your hands.
Wednesday, 8 July 2020
One size fits all.
Sunday, 5 July 2020
Rattling those pots and pans
Wednesday, 1 July 2020
My heart is here
Friday, 26 June 2020
We are so over it!
Sunday, 14 June 2020
Strine's a language all its own.
Wednesday, 13 May 2020
Kissing my phone screen!
Monday, 11 May 2020
Light at the end of the tunnel
Friday, 8 May 2020
Old, fat but wiser
Fold and put away today's load of laundryCook potatoes, pumpkin, onion and peas to serve with the left over lamb from last night.Check out the plus size clothes online- Finally chuck out those lying, treacherous scales.... :)
Tuesday, 28 April 2020
The spoons can wait
Sunday, 19 April 2020
Playing with my toys
Make zucchini spaghetti again with salmon for dinner.- Fold and put away a load of washing
Take a nana nap to overcome my fatigue from fibromyalgia.