Saturday 25 November 2023
When the fog clears, tea's on the list.
Monday 20 November 2023
We're going for a run
As you know, I have had to resort to using a wheelchair when I go out. It is not something I am happy about, but it is a necessary part of adapting to my new normal.
Along with walking, there are a few other things I have had to adapt to as well.
I sit on my shower seat. When I get out, I sit down again and dry off. That's about all the time I can stand.
Most times, Chris stacks and unstacks the dishwasher and this has stopped me having to stand and bend.
I always use the dryer even in good weather. I miss the smell of sun-dried clothes, but it is what it is.
I do make my bed for company, but even so it is just pulled up quickly, nothing fancy. I can't stand to tuck it in and I can't bend either...
With the ageing Australian Government Package, I have a support worker come every two weeks. She changes our beds.
Also within this Home Care Package, I can order ready cooked frozen dinners from Lite N Easy. The meals are designed by a dietitian and cooked by a chef. They are quite delicious and save me from having to stand to cook and I know we are eating well.
I am grateful for all this as it allows me to still be mistress of my home in spite of illness, pain and disability. But even so, I find myself longing for the soon rapture of the Church.
It will be so glorious to not only see my Saviour, but to be able to breathe easily, feel joy and go for a run...
Sunday 19 November 2023
Not falling off the vine
Since turning 70 last May, I have noticed a rapid decline in our health. Heart issues are worsening, pains are hurting, fibromyalgia is making spoons are scarce and my mood is darkening.
We both are enjoying the peace in our home that has been jealously guarded and nurtured. Quite simply, we cannot cope with other's dramas.So much so that we have become reclusive.
The days when we don't have to leave our home are cherished days. And even though we make a point to get dressed each morning, we are not adverse to having a couple of Pajama Days occasionally.
In short, we are wearing out. Physically, mentally and emotionally, we are spent. I can say that we aren't spiritually spent because we pray and worship a lot. It does help.
I have been posting a little spasmodically because of excessive fatigue, and I have decided that from tomorrow onward, I will post in a diary form recording bloods, blood pressure and so on. Plus anything else the LORD puts on my heart.
Today is Sunday and I have just done the least I can do to keep our home manageable. With the fatigue being bad and no spoons, I took a nana nap and it turned into a grandma nap. Three hours.
But I woke up and felt a bit better and managed to fold some clothes that had spent their new clean life in the laundry basket...
Anyway, I had a comforting thought which I will share: there's an old saying that the aged say... "I am so ripe that I am falling off the vine!" Not very comforting.
But the next thought was comforting- physically, yes I am- but spiritually, not so. Instead I am grafted into the Vine- Jesus and He sustains me and gets me through this painful path called life...
So, with His help, I am definitely not falling off the vine!
Sunday 29 October 2023
Are you a senior Aussie?
Thursday 28 September 2023
When the spoons are gone forever
Wednesday 23 August 2023
Help until He comes
Today was a busy day in that I was organising aged care help for Chris and I ... we arent coping all that well... lots of phone calls that had me on hold for at least an hour each
After nearly a whole day on the phone, I am happy to report that we were approved for help. Our aged care home package will start in 3-4 weeks. It includes transport, home maintenance, podiatry, and grass cutting. Later on as we get older it will include meals on wheels... but as long as I can cook, we would prefer our own cuisine.
I am hoping that God takes us Home soon. That is the best thing to dwell on. But meanwhile, while we wait, my house could do with a deep clean, our toenails are feral and we need them properly done. We cant take a bath and we help each other shower but a grip bar and telephone type shower have been promised to us under home maintenance, and that would stop the suffocation feeling of water pouring over our head when we can't breathe at the best of times..
We cant drive most times and we will need transport for a personal consultation with our doctor and the help they offer is needed now. Nothing to do with lack of faith or not watching- but we have to be practical.
Heart failure is a beast that stalks us both and is a progressive disease. Peripheral neuropathy in our feet and legs is a constant pain that stops sleep. A physiotherapist may be able to help or offer exercises to alleviate it.. all things that need attention now.
Including last but not least, changed bed linen that can be done without banging gnarled fingers and hands... and while we look with anticipation and longing to be Home, the daily necessities of life are calling.
We rely on God to help us and are grateful that He has blessed us with the help we need...until He comes. Our life style is always if the LORD wills.... we consider ourselves blessed that we are eligible for the help that's come our way, until He comes! God willing, it will be soon. But if not, we will be accepting help to keep going until He comes.
© Glenys Robyn Hicks
" So teach [us] to number our days, that we may apply [our] hearts unto wisdom" Psalm 90:12
Tuesday 22 August 2023
Time on the phone paid off
Once a year someone will come and wash our windows for us. The is all part of the Australian Government's plan to keep seniors in their own home instead of a nursing home.
I had to access three different goverment bodies today via phone with a waiting time of an hour or more, but with the ability to be approved so quickly and for the blessing it will be, the time on the phone paid off.
Monday 24 April 2023
It still is that for me!
Yep, it's still Safeway for me! With fibromyalgia brain fog and old age, tell me the new name of a place or person I knew, and it is lost forever... they will forever be the name I first called them!
So I had a phone consult today and the doctor wants to wean me off prednisolone after only four days.. it hasnt really done it's job quite yet, so I am going to spin it out for a few more days ...
Today I have washed some minkie blankets off our beds, ran and then emptied the Roombas, cleaned the toilets and ordered online medicines and groceries.I did some rounds of crochet in between tasks..
Chris loves bangers and mash so that's what I will be doing for tea tonight..
The Prednisolone fills me with fake energy, but I don't care... I will milk this Polymyalgia rheumatica situation for all it's worth! I know I won't be long on the meds so I may as well turn the antsy feelings for my good...and get the benefit of some pseudo spoons!
For those who don't know... in Australia Safeway Supermarkets took on the name Woolworths many moons ago: but as I said, it still is that for me!
Tuesday 2 August 2022
We need to talk
Friday 25 March 2022
The only nice thing about it
Friday 5 November 2021
Take me as I am
Wednesday 19 May 2021
Painted in to a corner
Thursday 1 April 2021
Is a little compassion too much to ask for?
I was relieved that I had a name to put to the painful syndrome that sucked the life out of me and added to my woes as a sufferer of angina, arthritis and back pain. And polymyalgia rheumatica thrown into the mix.
It made sense that with all these ailments, I would be finding it more difficult, or even impossible to do the chores that after a lifetime of being a wife and mother, were familiar and regular as the rising and setting of the sun.
With the newest diagnosis, came a depression because not only was I totally frustrated with having to constantly adjust to my new normal, but I was not afforded much compassion or understanding from others.
It was intimated, but not said, that I was lazy and using ill health as an excuse to be lazy. Nothing could be further from the truth. I was laid low emotionally as well as physically.
These days, it is rare to find someone who is compassionate for the chronically ill and/or aged. And it compounds the frustration and anger one can feel as one goes through the cycles of grief with a new diagnosis that limits one further.
I know a little understanding from others would go a long way to help me adjust and accept it every time I am faced with a new normal.
Sadly, not only do most people now not want to listen about chronic illness, but they don't want to know.
It's not a hard thing to commiserate with the trampled flower bowing under the weight of pain and illness and later, stigma.
We don't necessarily ask for help from others, but is a little compassion too much to ask for?
Tuesday 23 March 2021
The only blessing about getting old
It's Tuesday morning here. I have our cleaning lady coming at ten. Before she gets here, I want to tidy the house and get a load of washing done.
She usually vacuums and mops the floors and cleans the bathroom for me. As an aged pensioner, the government has certain home care packages for the aged and I have been approved for one. I do pay a fee for her services, but it is subsidised through the government Aged Care Plan.
I consider myself blessed beyond measure. Those jobs are ones I can no longer do and as Chris is quite unwell himself, I don't even ask him to attempt to do them.
Having home help is not a matter of being lazy- with fibromyalgia, heart and spinal issues and arthritis, there are a lot of tasks I just cannot do anymore.
As I have written before, I am grateful for all my labour saving devices and the Home Package Care Plan I qualified for.
I think it's the only blessing about getting old...
Wednesday 18 November 2020
Smelling the roses!
The last few weeks have been full of drama and it has seen my body collapsing with the mother of all fibromyalgia flares and a (non Covid) viral infection. Most things have been resolved and I have my peace back again.
I have taken back control of my house in which I had fallen down during my illness, and I have had help from a cleaner from my aged care package.
A lot of our Corona limits have been lifted and I have been able to see my family. That has helped. More things will be lifted next Sunday and it looks hopeful that we will be able to see family at Christmas.
Chris is recovering well from his surgery and no longer needs special dressing of his wound. In fact, a bandaid suffices now. I am so cheered that he is well. I hate it when he is unwell.
The days are getting hotter with tomorrow set to be 33deg C but I am not concerned since we aren't going outside and we have air conditioners now.
We saw the doctor today for routine blood results and my blood pressure check as it was high last week. With giving my situation to the LORD and regaining my peace, it was 134/80 and the doctor was very pleased.
We have found a couple of Christian networks to watch wholesome movies and they have been very uplifting. One is New Faith Network for which I pay about $8AUD a month and the other is free for 14 days then $8AUD a month- ACCTV.net from Australia.
Chris and I sit of an evening and watch TV together and it all helps to bring stress levels down as well as blood pressure.
We are enjoying our back garden with a return of the prolific bird life that is so colourful. They have returned from their migration north to beat the winter and they are a joy to watch as they come down for the seed and food we leave for them.
Life can be so difficult, but can also be so wonderful: a great deal of the wonder of it all is to take time in smelling the roses!
Monday 2 November 2020
Making holiday plans
Thursday 22 October 2020
The only perk of growing old.
Sunday 11 October 2020
Play it in your own time!