No doubt this was caused by Chris's diagnosis of heart failure, my daughter's impending leukaemia specialist test results, my grandson going to prison and the pain this has caused to us as a family.
I am feeling extremely unwell and was hesitant to take the Prednisolone my doctor ordered, but after a phone consult with him today, we discussed the risks v advantages and decided the risk was worth it.
Although I am feeling exhausted, the Prednisolone has given me a high that precludes going to bed for a nana nap. I have just sat up in the loungeroom watching and feeding the birds.
I have a sink full of dishes to do but no energy to do them. The only reason I am blogging now is that I am sitting and it takes very little of my limited spoons.
Recently, adapting to our new normal, our dryer was placed on top of our front loader washer and this has helped me so much with not having to stoop too much with my sore back and hips.
If I was well, I would have hung the washing out to dry as the last few days have been lovely warm autumn days here in Australia. But I have to use the dryer as I can no longer peg the clothes out or stretch my arms above my head.
When I finish talking with you, I am going back to my couch aka "the beach". I will be doing steak, chips, eggs tomatoes and baked beans for dinner.
Spiritually I am doing fine, it's just the physical that pulls me down- and I am exhausted just keeping my head above water!
Right there with you. I am trying to work through acceptance so I can get past guilt for all that I cannot do. I am exhausted every single day all day. I realize my family loves me even though I can't do much...I have to remember I am not a human doing but a human being. Oh that Heaven will be ours soon! Love Kelly
ReplyDeleteI love this: I have to remember I am not a human doing but a human being. So. Very. True.
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